October 27, 2020
While doing and completing rehabilitation. I had a lot of moments where I would self doubt myself.
How can I make it up to my family?
What do I need to do to stay sober and have do I keep my mind stay sane?
Would I fail?
These were words I found would ping my heart. When I came home a lot changes needed to happen.
We sold our business, I attended support groups, life was good. Most of all I still had my husband and children who NEVER gave up on me.
I was determined to keep my life in check.
As time progressed I was no longer triggered to drink. I had the other problem of not allowing my head to go back into the past.
I started seeking alternatives into making sure my hinengaro stayed sane.
I was still experience anxiety, backflashes, insecurity, insomnia the list goes on.
I remember I was attending a hui and BANG I had an anxiety attack I was in my truck and I was losing it.
I had remembered a friend had sent me some oils - I grabbed the bottle quickly and started rubbing all over me. It gave me this really calming, effect so I sat with the calmness for a few moments then I was able to continue to my hui.